Hi! My name is Hannah, and I am addicted to social media.

Have you ever had an experience that from the outside looking in you would’ve missed seeing but profoundly shakes you up? I’m not the mysterious type, in fact I am for sure an oversharer but out of respect for the other party involved in said shake up I will refrain from detailing what my experience was specifically. I will say however that I have been a social media addict for almost 10 years. WHAT? Gross. And tonight, about an hour ago. I QUIT. All deactivated and deleted. Peace OUT. See ya NEVER.

In all honesty, Facebook is not a problem for me. I actually loathe it. More than the Grinch loathes Christmas. Instagram, however. Gets me EVERY time. Last year I took 4 months off. Cold turkey. Never missed it. One day, most likely out of boredom I logged back in and BAM right back on the sauce.

I saw this quote (on instagram, ironically) that said, “If social media is an idol, my time is the burnt offering.” – Jackie Hill Perry. SHEW. It punched me in the face, gut and heart all at once but clearly didn’t stop me from keepin’ on with my burnin’.

I really don’t have any vices. I don’t drink alcohol, smoke any thing or do any drugs but social media is something I have used to numb SO much over the last decade. Sad? Insta. Happy? Insta. A moment for self-care? Insta. PPD? Insta. I have attempted to use it to feel a void I have and any boredom I feel instead of spending time in prayer or my bible. I would even follow bible study accounts and justify more time spent scrolling as to learning how to study… I know. REDIC. But tonight… I AM DONE. I mentally, physically and spirtually cannot continue basing my life and thoughts off of the clips of someone else’s life I see. I only get one life to live and I’ll be danged if I give another minute of it to Instagram.

When I think of all the time I’ve missed with my kids, the conversations I could’ve had with my husband, the things I missed in front of my face because I was looking at someone else’s highlight reel, how much farther along I could be in my walk with my Savior, the books I could’ve read, it legitimately makes me sick. I can’t turn back time and get any of those moments back BUT I can turn it all around right now. And I WILL. My kids deserve it. My husband deserves it. And most of all my Lord deserves it.

I completely acknowledge that folks can have healthy boundaries with social media. Unfortunately, I am not one. Tonight I deleted my TiKTok, Instagram & Facebook. The end of an era but the beginning of really living. Dramatic? Maybe to some. Truthful? Completely.

Keep me accountable, y’all.

❤ Hannah